PIXIE - PART 3

For the previous part, you on click on the hyperlinks attached here ;)

 Pixie - Part 1 & Pixie - Part 2

(Continuation)

“So... What exactly is the next step for you in dating?” He asked me with a deep interest.

“I don’t think I can put this in words in a right way. But I think I am not a person who can give so much in a relationship. I start feeling suffocated if I am in a relationship for more than some time. Maybe, that is the reason I broke up with the guy in my first relationship. I couldn’t explain why I broke up properly neither to him nor to my best friend. It all happened in a span of time because I felt jammed in relationship. I think I run away than solve this issue of commitment. So, if you ask me what is the next step in dating, I think I would have to tell you that it is destiny’s choice.”

“So, you mean you don’t want to end your relation or dating into a next step?”

“True love doesn’t end. Not in the steps, not anywhere. It is just a process and it keeps happening. We might lose people in that process; we might lose our hope too but love never dies or goes out of the way. All, I believe is people teach us love with their existence, and I would want to cherish it. I might actually be very fitting into the present generation, yet in the end all I wish for is to get some handwritten letters, flowers, being crazy together and coloring the world with each’s presence.”

He was quiet again. So, I decided to ask him. “Mihir, you told me you were in a relationship…what did you get from it?”
“Ahh, yeah. I had been in a relationship for about 3 years. Things didn’t go well between us. I realized I was in a toxic relationship, yet I had survived in the same, for few months. And then, she said she needed a break. I was confused. I did not know if there is something like taking a break from people we love. Space is different from taking a break. She knows that, I could never say no to her so I simply told her yes. Little did I know the time span of a break would be 6 months…”

He was sad. I didn’t know if he was crying, but I put my hand on his shoulders trying to console him. We, people do not understand how much pain we give others because of our own toxicity. Sometimes we hurt unintentionally and sometimes we hurt people because we take them for granted. There is no in between.

“Listen, you need not feel guilty for anything. People do not realize the beauty of others till they lose them. Eventually, they will come back to you only if destiny decides so. If they do not come, it means much better is yet to come… Now, if you do not smile and come to eat Vada Pav, anna would close the shop, my stomach would start growling, and I would become a hangry woman!”

He gave a weak smile. I stood to take him to the vada pav stall. And instantly, I fell because of my shoe lace! Damn another embarrassing moment! He started laughing, atleast this moment made him forget his worries and that is what all matters. We came near the stall finally!

“Kaise ho beti? Bahot din ke baad aayi ?”

“Ji, anna. Friend ke saath ayi aaj. Marine drive pe aye aur hum aapke Vada Pav na khaye ! Kabhi nahi! 2 Specials, extra chutney ke saath!”

“Ji beti, aap log aaram se baitiye!”

“You seem like the main source of income!” He joked.

“Obviously! The only food that tastes so good here is this! MY hostel food sucks half of the time. Whenever I feel like eating something good, or in need of a good company this is the best place!”

We had to wait for almost 15 minutes. I wandered around with my camera to shoot people and lifestyle, and he just sat looking at me enjoying my passion. I really wish I had a chance to enter into his brain.

I went a little far to take a photo of a young boy whose expression described loneliness. I captured him and bought him to this Vada Pav shop. By then, Mihir was holding two plates of Vada Pav.  I smiled at him and took one plate to give it to that boy. He was more than happy. He thanked me and left hurriedly to feed it to his sister. Damn, it was a very precious moment. I turned towards Mihir and he had a very proud expression on his face. I started blushing?! WHY GOD!

When I was about to order another plate of Vada Pav, he offered me from his plate. There were two sets, of which he offered me one. I couldn’t refuse. Because it is Vada Pav and not because it was Mihir. Duh! I’ve got a text from my roommate, to return to the room because they were closing the hostel gates. It was already 9:30 p.m. and I lost the track of time. My friend gave me a warning that if I was not in hostel in ten minutes, she would kill me. Shit! Why do I have to hurry up instead enjoying such beautiful and precious moments?!

“Mihirr!, sorry! I have to leave right now! I wanted to show you the beauty of this place, but then time has got some other plans. I am really so sorry. We will catch up tomorrow if you are free, at the Juhu beach by 6:30 in the morning. Beautiful sunrise! Byee! Sorryyy again!” He was sad that I had to leave but we’ve got no other option.

“It is okay Pixie! It is good that you actually made a plan to Juhu Beach. I love beaches! Just text me once you reach your hostel!”

“Yep! Sorry! You too text me! Byee” I started running without looking back. I had to reach there within 7 minutes, therefore that was the only way!

 

I have finally reached my room and hear all the ‘Bombay words’ from my roommate’s.  And finally, when I leaned on my bed, I have got a text message from Mihir.

“Pixie! Reached?”

“Yep! Just now. Wbu?”

“Yepp! So tomorrow? In morning 6:30, right?”

“Yess! Do not be late! I am warning you if I miss my sunrise moment, you would be dead!”

“Okay madam, your wish is an obligation for me.”

I started smiling. How things eventually change!

“Well then, good night!”

“Good night :)”

I threw my phone to the corner of my bed and kept recollecting the conversation we had. I was so tired that I did not realize I fell asleep…

 

[NEXT DAY]

 

I open my eyes and look at the clock beside me. I sit in a rush and start expediting things to catch up the bus at 5:28 a.m. to reach Juhu beach atleast by 6:30. I looked at my phone, and I already have around 5 missed calls from Mihir. Damn! I text him that I would be there by 6:30 and assured him that I was not planning to skip this. And finally, I hopped on to the bus and reached the beach exactly at 6:28 a.m.

I was wondering where he is. I tried to call him, but it was futile. So, I saw a spot in the beach and sat there where there was no crowd. I put down my bag and the camera, and started looking at the waves and the sun. It felt surreal. I felt like I have paused the time, and sat in peace with no things to do and no questions to answer. It felt light, my heart felt light.

“Boo!”

I jerked. Idiot, I yelled within.

“Good morning, Pixie!” He handed me something which was made out of paper. Oh, good lord, Flower bouquet! HANDMADE? For me!? I cannot take this. I was more than happy, the inner child in me started crying. Am I having tiny tears in my eyes? NO!

“God! NO! Thank you! I didn’t know you had this talent!”

“Nah, you deserve them! Like the pearls in the ocean, found by the rarest one’s, you are someone who is yet to be found.”

“You seem to be in a different mood today…?”

“In a good way or a bad way?”

“You look so bright, and cheerful.”

“Well, if I am meant to be the power, then my whole source of brightness is you!” he winked.

WHAT THE F? Did he flirt with me? “Are you kidding me? Since when did you start flirting?” I was totally red when I said this.

“No! I am not flirting. I was speaking facts. Literally, your name means brightness and shine. So I simply uttered facts.”

“God, you are crazy!”

“Well, I am. By the way, why are we here?”

“To live!”

“And, what does ‘to live’ mean?”
“To live is to admire and admit the truth.” 

[To be continued...]

PIXIE - PART 2

(This is the second part of the story, in case you haven't read the first part please do click on the attached hyperlink - PIXIE 1 and you would be directed to the first Part. Happiee Reading < 3)

The night seemed more colder today, or may be its my imagination. The marine drive is 15 minutes’ walk from here. Did I ever imagine I would introduce my favorite Vada Pav and my favorite spot here to someone? NOPE! Am I crazy that I am walking in the night with a guy I met a couple of months back? Its not that I don’t trust him, but neither does it mean I trust him! Boys these days fall in love if a girl shows a pea size of concern. Girls, are also a little too fast to be honest. Well, who am I to judge, though? Maybe I have trust issues.

 

“What are you so immersed in? Life? Or how to make Vada pav?” OH, Shit I forgot that I am not alone.

“Ahoh, sorry I forgot your existence!”

“Am I that easy to be forgotten?”

“No, I didn’t mean it that way. I was lost in my thoughts.”

“So you mean, I am very hard to wipe out from your memories?”

IS he flirting? What is he talking!

“You are way out of my league of words!”

“That’s a compliment. Thank you, princess.” He just bowed to me? WHY?

“Are you always like this? “

“This fun? And cute? And handsome you mean?”

“Annoying!?”

“10 points for your sense of humor!”

And by laughing together, we walked for few minutes. And, then out of blue, I started saying,

“Moments of laughter,

Shall be only mine.

For the world that doesn’t belong nowhere,

These seconds are mine.

And for now

Let my heart capture thee…”

 

“WOAHHH! Pixie? You are a Poet?” His eyes were as big as the moon, if that Is what is the biggest circle in my universe. He was surprised and excited that made me realize I spoke in a poetic way.

“Technically, I used to write poems, lets say years back. Now I don’t.”

“Some past?”

“No, no, no. Its just that now I am more into Photography and Travelling. I make sure I capture my words as pictures.” I said smiling.

“You love photography and Travelling a lot, right?”

“I worship them.”

“Why?”

“That’s a question?” I couldn’t stop laughing. “Well, Do you have a couple of minutes for my words?”

“My time’s all yours, ma’am!”  He bowed again! DAMN.
“Well, because what is life without travelling? In this huge world, where every corner of the planet is incomparably beautiful, isn't it foolish to not be seeing them all? if life is full of uncertainties and no one knows how the next day would look like, why not make today beautiful by exploring a part of this vast beauty? The whole world, for me is a treasure hunt, and I would never want to miss finding out its secrets. New people, new traditions and new seekings. Would I ever be bored of life? Never! And why photography? When I am given the opportunity to time travel, pause and reminisce the moments I loved the most, why wouldn’t I cherish it? Its my emotion and its my story telling. It's a language that I'd prefer and a narrative that I'd deliver.”  

I knew I was too ahead of him only after I had to pause to see his look. I was unable to interpret his feelings. I needed to make sure I said everything correctly. He staggered, and I had to take a few backward steps at that point.

"Mihir, is everything okay?"

“Hey… I have never met someone who spoke like you. I.. am .. really impressed..”

His eyes spoke these words, as a desire to express his admiration which was as huge as the ocean.

“Ah.. Thank you..” I had to tuck my hair behind my ears. Oh, wait, is that sign of shyness? Damn, this guy is making me do things I never felt. “Come on now, we are half way to the Vada Pav.”

“Its okay, When will this Vada-Pav stall close?”

“Ahm, may be 4 in the morning?!”

“WHAT?”

“That is the specialty of this stall. It runs over the midnight and would be shut in the morning. Most of the stalls here are the same way.”

“So it means, we have a lot of time before we actually eat Vada Pav. Perhaps, we also have a lot to talk.”

Nothing he said made sense for me at this moment. I was quiet. He wants to talk, but about what?

“Kia, you are on bumble, right?’

“Ah, yes I am. Why?”

“Nothing. You are aware that I am on Bumble as well. All I wanted to know was why you were using a dating app. Not that I'm passing judgement, but I'm interested to know. Since naturally occurring rainbows are uncommon, they won't be readily accessible. You are such a rainbow, and people should search for them patiently and with difficulty.

Suddenly, my entire face got red. "It is true that I believe in love, but not in made-up love. We should, in my opinion, find someone with whom we can travel the world, share leftover food, have crazy conversations, and generally feel validated and secure. Since, I do not believe in marriages, I must make sure I find the one who is suitable for me. And, this might help me getting a PhD in understanding men ;)”

“You do not believe in marriages? What does that even mean?” He was more shocked than surprised.

“Why is that so surprising? Because I want to date without any purpose?” I attempted to make a joke, but I’m not sure whether it came out right.

"No, no. That is not how I intend it. However, why?

"I think a marriage is a really complicated relationship. Even while it doesn't always end horribly, there are instances when it does take away your peace of mind, and I don't want to find myself in that circumstance. If I were to die, I would prefer to die from my regrets, my chances, and my own bothersome thoughts rather than from the sacrifices I make for a man. I don't want to cause suffering or receive it in return.

We both are sitting on the walkway now. And I look at my mobile’s lock to find out the time. It was past 8:30 p.m. I did not realize that we spent almost 1 hour together. I don't believe I have never witnessed Mihir being so nonplussed. Maybe. I had always known him to be someone who smiled and spread smiles, even if we had only met twice or three times. He is certain of what he does and knows what he wants. His beliefs, values, and points of view always sounded fair. However, his current appearance completely contradicts what I knew about him. I'm not sure if it's because of what I said and how I feel or because of his inquiries and revelations.

“Mihir, why do you look so blank? Do my answers feel like wrong?”

“HEY! NO! Its just that they are so deep. You know? Its been almost a few months since we met, and I assumed I knew you. I came to conclusion that you love photography, traveling and all but I never really knew you from inside. Now, you are just like a mystery box that I am talking to and that’s healing an unknown part of mine…”

And then, he put his hands on mine. I didn’t exactly understand what he’s trying to tell me with his eyes. They carried much deeper emotions, may be more like questions and a lot. We were just friends, and all I knew was that. But at this moment, I felt an instant connection, more like a spark .  I always had these thoughts on my mind, but I expressed them in the right way very rarely and now to this guy, I don't even know what harmones are making me feel so comfortable to talk! I think he's got too many questions in his brain. I wonder if they would all actually get answers.

[To be continued...]

PIXIE - PART 1

 A fictional love story! Happiee Reading!! <3

" Its 7'O clock in the evening. I am sitting here, all by myself with a cup of Coffee e and pizza and of course my diary. I had the best morning today! Watched sunrise on the Marine drive, captured Beautiful Portraits on the way, Had Vada Pav (not in my favorite place, yet it was so tasty!!)! Okay eating Vada Pav in the morning hits differently and I think burger is just over rated food item and I do not mind people's opinion but Vada Pav >>> burger. I think it’s a crime to even compare something beautiful with something casual. Then when I came back to my room, looking at my friends and the chaos they created I sighed and made a little space on my bed to watch all those idiots do drama. Ours, is a Girls collage and I think people generally underestimate the fun girls can have. May be, the only thing we might not be having is boys in our life BUT Boom, we can meet and befriend guys yearly once and all credits to the fests that our university conducts. I "

 

My phone buzzed with so many texts as if it’s an emergency. And duh, it is my best friend. Now, I know that my phone wouldn't stop buzzing until I give that idiot a reply. I had to close my diary, had a sip of my coffee, and took a deep breath because its code red from her which means she might have a relationship problem or a guy problem.

 

" Kai! CODE RED!

  I 

  am

  planning

  to ...

  Kai!

  K! 

  KIARA! 

  HEY BUSY LADY 

  I

  SAID

  CODE

  REDDDD! "

 

She is such a drama queen, my god. I feel bad for her partner. She messages 'Code Red' when she is in a charming peril rather than a dangerous one. It's more like when she wants to talk to me about anything after carefully considering her choice in what she did. This time, I wondered what she could have done. 

 

“REPLY ME! I recall that you had your final exam today, and I knew you would be alone yourself in the cafe. Thus, YOU IDIOT, REPLY ME BACK! "

 

I broke into a smile and began to respond after that.

 

" Aira! CALM DOWN. Give me some time! It has just been a minute since you sent me a text! BREATH IN AND OUT! Now tell me what were you planning to do???? (a smirk emoji) "

" Well, I wanted to set up a guy for you. HUHAH! Thank me later "

"This is why you texted Code Red? (again, a smirk) "

" Well, there is something else too... I am going. on. A ..date..."

 

Well done, girl! Somehow, I assumed it had to do with this. Despite Aira and Saryan have been dating for a couple of years, their love story is more like a fictional love at first sight and though they had been to several dates, this girl still feels it as the first one. She makes sure that I know about her date evenings. 

 

" Auh! This is not your first date AIRA! You and Saryan have already been to couple of dates!"

" OH, yeah but still!! DUH! Okay bye! I am getting late (a smiley and a shy emoji) "

 

What a girl she is! I smiled and then I started just glancing around. It was then I saw Mihir. My thoughts started to go back to when we had actually met. Being the head of the photography club, I had to attend a Street photo walk on behalf of my collage, which is how I first met Mihir a few months ago. He's been an amazing friend ever since. It seems like we've only had two meetings, yet we stay in touch through texts. There were times when we spoke on calls for hours too. Aira says he's a nice man in attitude who belongs in a fiction book, for his outstanding good looks. And I hate to admit that I develop a crush on him. (I really don’t know how and when!)

 

"HEYYI KIARAA!" He turned to face me as soon as he saw me across the counter.

And did I just make a strange face while dropping the cheese off the bite of pizza I was eating? Definitely! And Boom, he took a picture of me with this face, how embarrassing in just snap of moment! 

 

“MIHIR! Delete that photo! I look so stupid!” I was so furious because I looked so weird and he captured me like that!

 

“No, KI! You look so cute! How come you are still single?”

 

Because you are not! Lol! May be!

 

“Its been super long since we met. I was actually about to ask you for a meet up and I think nature heard me (wink wink).” 

How, can he smile so cute dude! In fact, even I thought of meeting him, but I was so preoccupied with studying for my tests and other obligations that I simply forgot he even existed person. When I'm really busy, I occasionally have a tendency to forget a lot of stuff.

           

“Yeah, even I thought the same. We can take Vodka shots now that you’re here (wink).”

 

“Pixie, do you drink?”

His face was bewildered as he asked! MORE OVER WHAT IN HELL IS PIXIE? I was never given a pet name, which is adorable and completely unrelated! OKAY, is he making me fall in love? If I say the same to Aira, she is going to kill me for sure!

 

“Pixie? Who is she? And yeah, I drink… You don’t, do you?” I was surprised to listen this from him.

 

“Pixie, is you. And yeah… I do not drink because I want stay pure and clean as long as possible.” He said this smiling giving me butterflies! Duh!

“But why Pixie?’

“Well, when we met the first time, you had a pixie haircut and you were so cute like that. So, I wanted to call you that.”

“Well, my haircut was not actually pixie but it was wolf cut. But, yeah thank you! Pixie sounds so good”

“Actually, Wolfie also sounds good. I can call you that too!”

“But that’s giving me vibes of dog name”

 

When I said that final thing, he burst out laughing and I enjoyed making him chuckle

And then I suddenly remembered how he wants to stay pure and clean.

 

“By the way, what makes you think that drinking will make you impure…?”

“Well, do not feel offended but alcohol makes your internal organs weary and you start feeling so sober that will make your thoughts heavy and sick. High blood pressure, Liver failure, chances of heart attack, pancreatic cancer”

 

“I interrupted him and prevented him from continuing. Alright, alright, alright. Okay, doctor, enough. Social drinking is OK. Okay, I'll forgo it for you for the time being and simply take you for a walk. Alright, sir? Or will fever and cold be brought on by the effect of the cold breeze?”

 

"K, you really do have a terrific sense of humor! Yes, I adore taking walks. It is also the most effective form of heart exercise (SMILE WITH A KILLER WINK). Where should we go next?

 

“Since you have never visited the western part of Bombay, where I currently reside, I will serve as your tour guide for the time being. First, we're heading to MARINE DRIVE, which is The Kiara's favorite place! After that, let's head to Gateway of India. Additionally, I'll take you to the most well-known vada pav Anna! You will fall in love with him, I promise!

 

"Oh my goodness, everything sounds so wonderful, but that last part—I fall for girls like you, not for the guy who sells Vada Pav—(wink again!)”

Is he kidding? Why is he making my life so much more difficult? GOD! Alright, let me settle the bill in this café, and then I'll take him out.

[To be continued...]